Will Smith recently revealed during a taping of his YouTube series Best Shape of My Life, that he had contemplated suicide.

The series is based on Will set to lose 20 lbs in 20 weeks.

The King Richard actor shared that it begin as a journey to get into the best shape of his life physically, but he soon realized mentally he was somewhere else.

In a trailer that was released on Friday, the the 53-year old actor is seen sitting around a table with his children: Trey, 28, Willow, 20, and Jaden, 23, sharing his deepest thoughts.

It’s not clear when the actor had the suicidal thoughts but we should find out when the show premieres Monday, November 8.

Will you be watching?